I’ve been terrible with my blogging lately.
I want to say I’ve been busy – and that’s true enough. But moreover, I think I just needed to take a break.
I didn’t want to focus on something else. I wanted to UNfocus.
The end of winter is always my least energetic time. I am tired of being cold. I am tired of being housebound. I am tired of boots.
As Goldie Hawn said in “Private Benjamin” – “I want to wear my sandals.”
But I’ve tried to stay engaged. I’ve done lots and lots of watercolors. Two or three every week. Mostly dogs and cats, which it seems I have a feel for. Here’s one of my recent favorites.
I’ve also continued to tweet Theo’s pup tip of the day. A bit of wisdom from my dog. I’ve been writing one little snippet of advice (with an accompanying photo) for almost a year now. Someone asked me recently how I can think of all those little lessons. I answered that I didn’t have to come up with all of them – only one a day. If you break your projects down into the smallest piece, it really is achievable.
Here’s a recent Theo tip:
But I’ve also been ruminating (and vegging).
I’ve been working up to a decision. Something that I’ve gone back and forth about wanting.
Sometimes you want something very badly one minute, and the next minute you absolutely abhor the idea.
Or you know you really do want it but you also know it will be really hard work.
Or you think about how much joy this action might bring to your life. But on the other hand – your life is pretty good right now, and what if this makes it worse, not better.
Or you want it very badly, but not everyone in your family is quite on board. How much does what you want take precedence over what someone else wants? Do your wants ever come first?
And so back and forth I went. While the weather stayed shitty and my energy level was just as bad.
And now it’s officially Spring. I see the tiny sprouts of daffodils peeking up through the snowy ground. They are ready for Spring, despite the continued cold. And I am more than ready.
And I was finally ready to take a chance.
To go for my crazy idea.
And here’s that crazy idea.
Welcome to my crazy life, Henry.
May you learn to love me and Tom and Theo and Lillian and Thor and Niko and Athena and Moonlight.
May they all learn to love you.
I already do.